Please feel free to skip the following section if you don't want to read words of wisdom and would rather see pictures of blue hair and cats.
When I was in high school, there was a boy that I knew that was bullied relentlessly for no reason. Eventually, the bullying became so bad that there were reasons that people bullied him for (reasons that were caused by the bullying; defensiveness, anger, fighting, and obvious signs of depression). He was a brilliant person -- one of the smartest people I have ever met, but although he would participate in class, his school work suffered because he would spend class trying to ignore everyone. He rode my bus, so when I would board in the morning I would make sure to sit in the spot next to the aisle so that I could slide over when he boarded, that way he would have someplace to sit. Because even though I was too afraid to stand up for him, I could at least try to help by preventing the inevitable argument that would happen when he found no place to sit and no one would move over for him to sit down. For years after I graduated, I felt guilty. One of the best things I have ever done was messaging him on Facebook later and apologizing for never standing up for him. Yet, instead of being angry, he was also apologetic, telling me that he was sorry for never noticing my efforts to help him. At the end of our conversation, he told me that he held no grudge against me, and that the best thing that I could do for him now was to forgive myself and learn from everything that happened. His message rang loud and clear: "Take pride in what you have and what you've done, and worry less about what you didn't do and what you missed out on." I took that to heart and I let myself forgive myself for never standing up.
I had a great sense of pride in what I had done. I had righted my wrongs and I felt better. Then, recently, I was posting old pictures from middle school, and someone messaged me out of the blue, telling me that they had been wanting to tell me something for a while now and hadn't found the guts to say it. I was a little worried with where he was going with that, when he continued to apologize for being so outright rude to me in high school and that he knew I never deserved that kind of misdirected anger. It was funny, because until right then, I didn't even remember that he was ever unkind to me. But, apparently, it tormented him just as my situation tormented me. I let him know that there was absolutely nothing to worry about and that all was (literally) forgotten, and I passed on the message: "Take pride in what you have and what you've done, and worry less about what you didn't do and what you missed out on." It was a statement that was not meant for this situation, but still, the message of forgiveness was clear, and I added on my own bit: Just be a better person, and focus on the fact that you're a different person now. We all have a past. We all have regrets, whether we admit it or not. The best thing that we can do is move on, right our wrongs, and continue on to be great people and do great things.
AND NOW ON TO YOUR REGULARLY SCHEDULED PROGRAMMING!
So lately I've just been working a lot and spending time with Patrick! I love my job, truly I do. Cats have always been my favorite animal and I am thrilled to finally have a job that fits me so well as a person.
Sahib just cannot sit still for pictures. He would rather sniff me.
But I love spending my breaks with him! He won't stop rubbing all over you and demanding to be paid attention to :)
The least-blurry picture I could find of the fuzzy buddy
Everyone meet Stormy! He's ultra fluffy.
And this is Donner, Stormy's brother. We love them! Everyone's favorite thing is to carry one in each arm and just be surrounded by fluffiness.
Recently, I was having a really bad day right from the moment I woke up, so while I was at work and Patrick was on his lunch break, he went and got me a bit of a care package to remind me of how much he loves me! It was super sweet.
My favorites :)
The next night, we went out to dinner (which was supposed to be my treat). Patrick chose The Cheesecake Factory! I know he wouldn't normally have chosen that place, but for my sake, he did. We usually go to someplace that he likes and find something that I will either tolerate or try. But that night, he chose for us to go someplace that he knew I would enjoy. It's someplace that I've wanted to try since I started watching The Big Bang Theory (Penny, the main female character, works at one of these restaurants). Our dinner was alright (there were way too many choices to pick from, and I feel like I was cheated out of an awesome dinner because I couldn't even decide. I ended up with Fish N Chips, something I could get anywhere!), but our dessert was phenomenal! I loved my Kahlua Cocoa Coffee Cheesecake. We decided that, afterwards, we were going to go to Build A Bear. So Patrick picked up the dinner tab and we went to build our furry friends!
The ridiculous menu
Coffee Cocoa Kahlua Cheesecake
Pineapple Upside Down Cheesecake
My bear, Sassy! She's a rainbow bear and she smells like cotton candy :)
My bear and Patrick's monkey, which he named Butt (Butt Monkey, get it?). Butt smells like Chocolate Mint :)
Then, this week, we went out for a little adventure (we went to Wal Mart, which I haven't been to since I left Michigan!). While we were there I picked up some hair dye, and afterwards we stopped at Cold Stone.
Pumpkin and Cheesecake flavors mixed together? Yes please!
When we got home, I bleached some of my hair and dyed it blue! I've been planning on a color for a while, but the blue was a last second choice. I really like it and it's awesome to finally have a job that allows me to do what I want with my hair.
I'm blue dah ba dee dah ba dii. Eifel 65, anyone?!
This weekend, we have a Rocky show. Unfortunately, it is our MC Dano's last show, so it's bound to be a sad/fun night. I'm sorry if this post isn't super informative, but nothing huge has happened lately, so this is what you get! I miss everyone back home and I hope you're all getting along without me alright (ha!). More os soon to come once we have more than everyday life events going on (hint: think Great America and attending a wedding)! :D
And for anyone who wonders how I'm doing here in California, YES, I am being well taken care of. JUST LOOK AT OUR FREEZER! The only thing I'm at risk of is losing a toe when one of these frozen solid things jumps out at me and attacks! Ahh!